Dear Mr. Dad: Outside of the home, I’m a fairly calm, patient, level-headed person. At home, I’m impatient, angry and yell a lot at my kids. I’m actively involved in their activities, but rarely find anything that they do very interesting.
And efforts that I make to expose them to things I enjoy (tennis, baseball) always seem to backfire to the point that I regret making the effort.
My problem is that I love my kids, but I don’t necessarily like them. I know they’ll only be young for a short time and I should try to enjoy them while I can.
But, honestly, I think I enjoy them less than 5 percent of the time. So my question is this: What can I do to enjoy my family more?
A: You very eloquently captured a feeling just about every parent has had (or will have). Very few people have the courage to admit it, though, so thanks for that. You didn’t say how old your children are, but there are several factors that may be contributing to your feelings.
First, there’s their behavior. Dealing with rude, surly, uncooperative, disrespectful children on a regular basis can definitely make you question whether you should have had children in the first place.
Second, as children get older, they naturally push for more independence. If you aren’t able to gradually let go, you may feel useless, unloved, and angry that you’re being pushed away. Third, the expectations you have for your children may be out of whack with what they’re actually physically or mentally able to do.
What to do?
• Think hard. There’s a big difference between not liking your children and not liking their behavior. Sometimes it’s hard to separate the two, but it’s important to try.
• Read up on temperament. Some kids are naturally easier to get along with than others. In addition, certain parent-child personality combinations are more explosive than others.
• Read up on child development. Understanding what’s normal and what’s not for children your kids’ age, should increase your patience and enjoyment levels.
• To be blunt, grow up a little.
Start learning to accept the things you can’t change, and focus instead on changing the things you can, such as your attitude. You need to transition from “daddy who knows everything” to “daddy the mentor who gives advice when it’s asked for.”
There’s a good chance that your kids will eventually grow out of their behavior issues. But if you stay on the track you’re on, you’ll have destroyed any hope for a good relationship with them long before that happens.
That said, the fact that you care enough about them and being a good dad to write, makes me think you’ll never let things get that far.