Jason Martin can't seem to get into this "homecoming" thing everyone keeps talking about.
Texas Tech's starting point guard admits he is amused by the coincidental nature of the Red Raiders' first-round National Invitation Tournament travels, which have landed him back at Washington State - the very school he left last fall.
But his thoughts, along with his prayers, are drifting nearly 1,200 miles south to Hacienda Heights, Calif., where his 26-year-old brother Todd is dying from throat cancer.
And not even tonight's 9 o'clock showdown against his former Cougar teammates - let alone all of the trumped-up "homecoming" hype - can ease the grief he feels.
"It's a difficult time," Martin, a 5-foot-10 junior, admitted Tuesday after flying from his brother's bedside to join his Texas Tech team for an early evening practice at Friel Court, the site of tonight's game.
"Right now it's kind of hard, because this is a big game and whatever. But it doesn't mean anything as far as my family comes into play.
"I really kind of wish I was back there (with Todd). But I prayed, and the Lord told me it was OK for me to come here and do this today. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed for my brother."
At 21, Martin is the youngest of seven children in his family. Todd, the closest in age of his three brothers, was diagnosed with cancer just a short time ago. His kidneys are failing and he is hooked up to a dialysis machine.
Monday afternoon, Todd's heart quit beating.
"He had a heart attack," Martin explained. "They had to revive him. He's still in bad shape right now."
Martin flew home to be with his brother after Tech lost to Texas in Saturday's finals of the Southwest Conference Tournament. He learned of the NCAA's snub of the Red Raiders and their subsequent NIT berth when he arrived home.
"I was surprised to be playing Washington State," Martin admitted, adding that he never, "not even in a million years," expected to see Pullman again. "You get to come back to